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Thursday, January 7, 2010
BLEHH
i hate infatuation. i CURSE infatuation! infatuation RUINS LIVES!!! especially those trying to be useful vessels for the Lord. infatuation should die!!! i cast infatuation into the lake of fire! infatuation is under my feet! infatuation shall not prevail!!!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
i can't think of a creative title for this post, but if you must know, it's all about names.
here are some pretty names that I don't mind having as my first name (if they actually suit me).
i've thought these over quite well and some have been added by friends because they think they're suitable for me *rolls eyes*.
Helene (alternative of Helen, suggested by GIS friends)
Sky (suggested by Tze Yang; or "Ciel", which is the French translation)
Dahlia (a flower)
Chihiro (i don't really know how this caught on.. but oh well)
Angela (suggested by Niqi)
Darcie (according to thinkbabynames.com, it means "dark")
Taselin (OMG i can't believe this name doesn't exist on any baby naming website!!)
Elsie (means "My God is a vow" and is a variant of Elizabeth)
Deborah (woo hoo! Girl power! actually, it's Hebrew for "bee")
Marie (a pretty name, but it actually means "bitter"in Hebrew =S)
Cassia (another word for "Cinnamon". It was one of the constituents of the compound ointment mentioned in the Bible. apparently, it was used as a repellent =_=)
... and here are some boy names that i find rather beautiful...
Note: when i say these names are "beautiful", i don't really pay attention to the meanings of the names, but more to how they sound, how well they roll off the tongue, or how well they twinkle in my mind.
Reuben
Zion (i actually know someone called by this name)
Jacob
Josiah
Luke
Nathaniel
Sebastien
random scraps of my mind
yes, i'm starting to blog again. not like anyone reads my blog anyway *rolls eyes*. my comments are always empty.
anyway, i'm going to start drafting my blog posts from now on, rather than just sitting in front of the computer staring aimlessly into thin air trying to come up with something witty enough to post here.
so HERE GOES.
i began the draft by thinking up some rather cute analogies. (CTS rubbing off on me, i know)
LOVE IS... hard to find (the genuine type). I can only be sure of its authencity if its source is God or family.
INFATUATION IS... a bucket of red-hot glowing embers... its warmth makes you smile but it can burn you if you touch it =(
GIRLS ARE... like butterflies. They're pretty, and you never know what they're really thinking.
BOYS are... like Internet pop-up ads. Annoying and usually unnecessary.
COMMUNICATION is... pretty damn difficult without a phone or the Internet.
FRIENDS ARE... like trees; they give you shade and support, but over time they may "die".
okay now that i look back at them... they don't seem so cute anymore; more like depressing =_=
oh well. that's that. so after the analogies, which i was writing at the dinner table with Ma sitting in front of me reading her books, and Ko sitting beside me playing Warcraft on his new laptop, I asked Ko, (and here is a really quotable quote which makes me laugh every time i read it):
"Can you teach me how to download pirated software?"
ahahaha... it's so funny... the bluntness of it all... the innocence and the simplicity and the nonchalantness of it all.... the worst part is, i felt no guilt whatsoever over saying that i partake of pirated software. oh dear. i'm not sure what to write now, because there's nothing to comment about really...
ANYHOO, after the inscribing of the quotable quote onto my draft book (i'm using the book that Kristen got me from Paperchase as my blog draft book... it also happens to be my spiritual experiences book, hehe) I began to list down some "pretty" names that i've collected over time.
Since i have to go for prayer meeting now, and Ma is getting very plucky because i'm still typing and not moving, i better continue in the next post.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
back from training!
WOW....
now THIS is why i have so much faith in the youth trainings... everytime i go, i can be sure that i will emerge a totally different person. everytime i go, i shed a little of the world from me, and take a little more life in me. Lord, help me to grow in life! I want Your life within me to mature and blossom!
celine, rachel and jane (jelly) were my spiritual companions throughout the training. eunice was too, but she left early for a squash tourney =(
i must say, the Lord really knows how to discpline us and teach us to take the way of the cross... celine, rach and jane were all staying on the first floor, but i was on the third floor. it was a burden! not only did that mean that i was amongst a lot of "unknowns" but also i was so far away from my dear companions! i was also the oldest youth in my room (i'm considered form 6) and during the training, sister Yee Fong left which made ME the "serving one" for our room!
however, all this serving one position-filling stuff just perfected my shepherding. i learnt to be more strict with my time management since now i had to be the pattern for the younger sisters to follow. if they saw me staying up late, so would they! so i had to make sure they shared and prayed adequately before going to bed and getting some proper rest.
it wasn't all fun and games in my room... it was difficult for me to blend with them since they were mostly lower youth and the only other upper youth was very quiet.... but i still prayed for them, and as the days went by, i noticed they started warming up to each other. even jayne (the quiet upper youth) became more open and exercised. Praise the Lord!
all in all, i really experienced the Lord's provision, wisdom and sovereignty in every environment that he placed me in. Lord, I love you.
now THIS is why i have so much faith in the youth trainings... everytime i go, i can be sure that i will emerge a totally different person. everytime i go, i shed a little of the world from me, and take a little more life in me. Lord, help me to grow in life! I want Your life within me to mature and blossom!
celine, rachel and jane (jelly) were my spiritual companions throughout the training. eunice was too, but she left early for a squash tourney =(
i must say, the Lord really knows how to discpline us and teach us to take the way of the cross... celine, rach and jane were all staying on the first floor, but i was on the third floor. it was a burden! not only did that mean that i was amongst a lot of "unknowns" but also i was so far away from my dear companions! i was also the oldest youth in my room (i'm considered form 6) and during the training, sister Yee Fong left which made ME the "serving one" for our room!
however, all this serving one position-filling stuff just perfected my shepherding. i learnt to be more strict with my time management since now i had to be the pattern for the younger sisters to follow. if they saw me staying up late, so would they! so i had to make sure they shared and prayed adequately before going to bed and getting some proper rest.
it wasn't all fun and games in my room... it was difficult for me to blend with them since they were mostly lower youth and the only other upper youth was very quiet.... but i still prayed for them, and as the days went by, i noticed they started warming up to each other. even jayne (the quiet upper youth) became more open and exercised. Praise the Lord!
all in all, i really experienced the Lord's provision, wisdom and sovereignty in every environment that he placed me in. Lord, I love you.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
karma much
i've never really appreciated what my mum does for me. i mean, "appreciate" is so ambiguous. how do we actually "appreciate" something?
do we merely say things like "thank you" and "that's wonderful" and "i really needed that" and other niceties when people do things for us? wouldn't that just be forced ceremonial utterance?
how do we "appreciate"? what do people mean when they say "you should appreciate ______ more rather than take it/her/him/me/them for granted"? what i'm really trying to say is, when is it that we don't appreciate? if we don't express our gratitude every hour or even every day, does that make us spoilt brats?
okay, that may be taking it a LEEDLE bit too far. i must admit that at times, it's easy to forget Who made you and Who you should really be thanking. I think we show gratitude towards all the wrong people, and none towards those who really deserve it. Take God for instance. If we can experientally realize what He had to go through to save us from eternal perdition, we would genuinely fall to the ground and declare ourselves unworthy of His love. But the thing is, He showed it to us anyway. And that's what has captured so many lovers of Christ.
Anyway, back to the mum thang. i bought some asam laksa for her this afternoon because i thought it would be very grown-up of me to do so. i especially enjoyed callin gher on my mobile and asking her (with a lot of noise in the background, thus showing how busy i was) if she'd fancy some laksa for lunch. so i bought it, as well as some tasty lekur.
Later on, as she was preparing it, she said, "Aiya. Have to go soon (for sisters' meeting). Shouldn't have asked you to buy the laksa. It doesn't even look that good, anyway."
OHHHH i was offended. i was like, erm excuse me? i trudged around in that damansara place in the hot hot sun to buy that laksa for you and now you're telling me it doesn't look good???"
OH HOW DAAAARE YOU!!!
then i realized, how many times have i not appreciated the food my mum buys or makes for me? it made me think about all those portions of salmon oat porridge i made faces at.... those 101 "healthy" vegetables my mum cooked out the Encyclopedia of Veggies....
do we merely say things like "thank you" and "that's wonderful" and "i really needed that" and other niceties when people do things for us? wouldn't that just be forced ceremonial utterance?
how do we "appreciate"? what do people mean when they say "you should appreciate ______ more rather than take it/her/him/me/them for granted"? what i'm really trying to say is, when is it that we don't appreciate? if we don't express our gratitude every hour or even every day, does that make us spoilt brats?
okay, that may be taking it a LEEDLE bit too far. i must admit that at times, it's easy to forget Who made you and Who you should really be thanking. I think we show gratitude towards all the wrong people, and none towards those who really deserve it. Take God for instance. If we can experientally realize what He had to go through to save us from eternal perdition, we would genuinely fall to the ground and declare ourselves unworthy of His love. But the thing is, He showed it to us anyway. And that's what has captured so many lovers of Christ.
Anyway, back to the mum thang. i bought some asam laksa for her this afternoon because i thought it would be very grown-up of me to do so. i especially enjoyed callin gher on my mobile and asking her (with a lot of noise in the background, thus showing how busy i was) if she'd fancy some laksa for lunch. so i bought it, as well as some tasty lekur.
Later on, as she was preparing it, she said, "Aiya. Have to go soon (for sisters' meeting). Shouldn't have asked you to buy the laksa. It doesn't even look that good, anyway."
OHHHH i was offended. i was like, erm excuse me? i trudged around in that damansara place in the hot hot sun to buy that laksa for you and now you're telling me it doesn't look good???"
OH HOW DAAAARE YOU!!!
then i realized, how many times have i not appreciated the food my mum buys or makes for me? it made me think about all those portions of salmon oat porridge i made faces at.... those 101 "healthy" vegetables my mum cooked out the Encyclopedia of Veggies....
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